A while back, I pulled up to a parking space at Kroger and sat in my car for a second before going in. I usually get out immediately after arriving and get everything I need to as swiftly as I can, but this time was a little different. As I was getting my mask and taking the aux cord out of my phone to head inside, I noticed a girl around my age taking a selfie in a car at a parking space diagonal from me. I stopped rushing to get inside and sat in my car for a few more seconds because I was shocked by what was going on. This girl kept taking selfies and then deleting them, looking in the mirror to fix something of herself (her hair, her lipstick, her shirt), and then re-taking another selfie just to delete it again and try a new angle or fix something else. This cycle happened quite a few times. Then the girl picked up her mask, put it on, and took a couple of more selfies. I assumed she finally got one that she was pleased with because she smirked after taking her mask back off, stopped taking more selfies, and then left the Kroger parking lot. Now I usually am not this observant of people, especially people who are just chilling in their cars at Kroger trying to take a selfie, but as I stated before, I was shocked and troubled by what I was witnessing. On my end, I could not fathom why this girl had to keep re-taking selfies. She was very pretty and seemed extremely put together. Did she not think that she looked good enough, so much to the point where she needed to put a mask on just to take a selfie? Who knows, but I sure hoped not, because like I said, homegirl was beautiful. It was so easy for me, someone who doesn't even know her, to see this.
As I replayed this scenario in my head, I became even more disturbed at everything I witnessed because I knew deep down that I've done this same thing. Maybe not in the Kroger parking lot, but I've definitely spent too much time trying to take a selfie or photo, just to delete it, take 5 more, and question if any of them were "good enough". Why was it so easy for me, at this moment, to raise the question about whether or not this girl knew how beautiful she was when I've done this exact same thing to myself a million times without raising the same question? Clearly, something was off. I realize how easy it is for me to see how uniquely beautiful, amazing, and gifted others are, yet it's sometimes so hard for me to see the same for myself. I'm assuming many of you are often in the same boat, and that's why I wanted to post this. Do you realize how freakin' amazing, beautiful, talented, and loved you are?!? I sure hope so, but if you don't realize this about yourself I promise you that someone else does. Maybe even someone so random, like a stranger at your nearest Kroger :)